Working in the garden with my family was lots of fun. Made me wish even more for a life like that. Someday...
Sunday night DH left. Lol! Not like that! There's this cop/drug/traffic conference thing down at the Windstar Casino. Another guy was supposed to go but he couldn't so DH got to go. So I'm a bachelorette until Thursday or Friday. Whenever he gets back. He's the only DA at the conference and the cops are loving it. They want more DA's to start going. He's answering all sorts of questions they have about the law and stuff. He's having a great time.
I'm also having a nice time. Last night I made a half batch of chocolate chip cookies to try freezing them. If they don't lose quality it will make large batches much easier. Like for the 12th Annual 3rd of July Party! 400 people eat a lot of cookies and I don't want to make them all at once if I don't have to. I also watched TV and read some of one of my new books. Tonight I watched some more TV and then I weed-eated. Weed ate. I mowed the backyard with the weedeater. The terrain is still too much for the mower. Now I am all showered and cooled off and I have a blister. It has been a long time since I had a blister. It is uncomfortable. Perhaps I will poke it.
Ok that's better. Fluid buildup on the palm side of your pinky knuckle is annoying.
I have not gotten to bed at a reasonable time in several days do I'm going to do that now.
Tuesday, June 28, 2011
Friday, June 24, 2011
random stuff
A couple of weeks ago I found some tobacco hornworms (Manduca sexta) on my tomatoes. I decided to raise them indoors because 1. I have a hard time killing things and 2. it's been a long time since I raised caterpillars and it was fun. At first I had 2. I put them in a little cricket cage. Then I found more. And more. They moved up to a 20 gallon tank with substrate and a mesh top (gerbil cage). I think I ended up with 7 or so larvae. A couple of days ago they started wandering and now they're in the pre-pupa stage. Most of them are buried completely but I can see the butt of one caterpillar. So when that little green butt turns brown I'll get in there and find the pupas. You can tell the gender in the pupa stage. Then in like 20 days or so the moths will emerge and I can feed them nectar or let them hang out in the garden and then after a week they'll lay eggs and die. They're really cute and really grotesque at the same time. I just don't touch them much. Maybe I'll do better with the second generation.
I ordered three books the other day. They should be here on Tuesday. They deal with social skills and stuff. I figure since I won't see the doctor until January, the best thing I can do is treat it like Aspergers and see if I improve. That's what they do in medicine. Treat for what you think it is and if that works, that's what you had. Learning social skills won't make the underlying cause go away but it might let me keep my job. I guess some people treat Aspergers as a disability with all the special treatment and paperwork and everything. I don't want that AT ALL. I just want to know why I'm different and how to capitalize on my strengths and lessen the weaknesses. I feel like I should be more valuable because I think differently than most people. I come up with creative solutions to problems all the time and the bosses look at me weird and then do what I suggest. Richard has said several times that he would have never come up with the solution that I thought of almost immediately. I also feel like my attention to detail and passion for quality work should make me valuable- and it does. That's what's kept me there so long. But lately I feel like I'm not allowed to perform up to my standards. I feel like we all are supposed to cater to the lowest common denominator instead of raising everyone's skill level. That frustration is what causes my "attitude problem". So far the biggest change I've made at work is simply not voicing my frustrations unless I'm 100% sure that they won't travel up the ladder and get me in trouble. When I do vent, I phrase it in the best possible way. Like how I wish I could help them be more efficient.
This week has been crazy. The kind of crazy where you either have to go postal or just laugh about it. I chose to laugh. Every day there were several big jobs that got messed up. They were all caused by different people, and most of them were the most experienced people in the company. One job was messed up by the outsource company. Several were caused by the customer insisting they wanted it that way even though we knew they didn't. One job got the inside printed upside down by the most experinced pressman we have. Even [name omitted] himself had two pretty big oopses. That usually doesn't happen, but like I said, it was a weird week. But we got everything fixed and it's all ok now. I hope next week is more normal. One day I went to Matt with about 5 problems (needed to reprint the job) just while working on the cutter! I usually don't do that 5 times in a week! But it is over now and I can relax!
Until tomorrow morning when I'm getting up at the butt-crack of dawn to go help my family with Pappaw's garden. He started a big garden and then we think he had another heart attack or heat stroke or something. Either way, he's unable to tend the big garden and so we're all pitching in. I think it will be fun though. Most of my aunts will be there and some others too. We'll have a good time together.
I bought a watermelon. It is yummy.
I ordered three books the other day. They should be here on Tuesday. They deal with social skills and stuff. I figure since I won't see the doctor until January, the best thing I can do is treat it like Aspergers and see if I improve. That's what they do in medicine. Treat for what you think it is and if that works, that's what you had. Learning social skills won't make the underlying cause go away but it might let me keep my job. I guess some people treat Aspergers as a disability with all the special treatment and paperwork and everything. I don't want that AT ALL. I just want to know why I'm different and how to capitalize on my strengths and lessen the weaknesses. I feel like I should be more valuable because I think differently than most people. I come up with creative solutions to problems all the time and the bosses look at me weird and then do what I suggest. Richard has said several times that he would have never come up with the solution that I thought of almost immediately. I also feel like my attention to detail and passion for quality work should make me valuable- and it does. That's what's kept me there so long. But lately I feel like I'm not allowed to perform up to my standards. I feel like we all are supposed to cater to the lowest common denominator instead of raising everyone's skill level. That frustration is what causes my "attitude problem". So far the biggest change I've made at work is simply not voicing my frustrations unless I'm 100% sure that they won't travel up the ladder and get me in trouble. When I do vent, I phrase it in the best possible way. Like how I wish I could help them be more efficient.
This week has been crazy. The kind of crazy where you either have to go postal or just laugh about it. I chose to laugh. Every day there were several big jobs that got messed up. They were all caused by different people, and most of them were the most experienced people in the company. One job was messed up by the outsource company. Several were caused by the customer insisting they wanted it that way even though we knew they didn't. One job got the inside printed upside down by the most experinced pressman we have. Even [name omitted] himself had two pretty big oopses. That usually doesn't happen, but like I said, it was a weird week. But we got everything fixed and it's all ok now. I hope next week is more normal. One day I went to Matt with about 5 problems (needed to reprint the job) just while working on the cutter! I usually don't do that 5 times in a week! But it is over now and I can relax!
Until tomorrow morning when I'm getting up at the butt-crack of dawn to go help my family with Pappaw's garden. He started a big garden and then we think he had another heart attack or heat stroke or something. Either way, he's unable to tend the big garden and so we're all pitching in. I think it will be fun though. Most of my aunts will be there and some others too. We'll have a good time together.
I bought a watermelon. It is yummy.
Tuesday, June 21, 2011
Getting By
Well, during my research on why I'm a bad employee, I once again stumbled upon the autism spectrum. Other than stimming (flapping, tics, repetative movements) I fit practically all of the requirements of Aspergar's Disorder. Motivated by more failed attempts to understand what is required of me at work, I made an appointment to be evaluated. In January. Seriously, that was the first available appointment. Seems like we need more phychologists out there who can diagnose adults with autism spectrum disorders. I'm also on the cancellation list. So if someone cancels and then 21 other people can't make it, I'll get a call. :-)
In the meantime, there are a few books I'm trying to get a hold of. It seems I'm not the only person who has trouble with social interaction and unwritten rules of society. But I'm apparently the only person who wants to get them on Kindle or from the library. I have a hard time buying books. It feels impractical. I'm trying to convince myself that these are references that I'll use over and over.
I'm not sure what else to do at this point. Do I reveal this possibility to my bosses in an attempt at understanding? Or will that be more likely to get me fired than just limping along? These are things I think I'm supposed to know instinctually but I don't. I know that I would want the most information possible about why my employee is so difficult. But it turns out that the need for data and knowledge is an Aspie trait so Chris may not care. He may react badly to a conversation about it.
I really want to know what the bosses are thinking. How close am I to being fired? How many bad things have I done and am not aware of? Yes, that happens frequently. I'll find out months from now that some behavior is unacceptable. So would a possible explanation bring understanding or more hate? I don't know.
But right now I know I need to go to sleep. Good night.
In the meantime, there are a few books I'm trying to get a hold of. It seems I'm not the only person who has trouble with social interaction and unwritten rules of society. But I'm apparently the only person who wants to get them on Kindle or from the library. I have a hard time buying books. It feels impractical. I'm trying to convince myself that these are references that I'll use over and over.
I'm not sure what else to do at this point. Do I reveal this possibility to my bosses in an attempt at understanding? Or will that be more likely to get me fired than just limping along? These are things I think I'm supposed to know instinctually but I don't. I know that I would want the most information possible about why my employee is so difficult. But it turns out that the need for data and knowledge is an Aspie trait so Chris may not care. He may react badly to a conversation about it.
I really want to know what the bosses are thinking. How close am I to being fired? How many bad things have I done and am not aware of? Yes, that happens frequently. I'll find out months from now that some behavior is unacceptable. So would a possible explanation bring understanding or more hate? I don't know.
But right now I know I need to go to sleep. Good night.
Saturday, June 11, 2011
The thermometer is lying
The computer says it is 75 outside. The weather station says it is 73 outside. I went outside. It is not in the 70s. It is in the 90s. I was immediately sweating. No wind to speak of either. Yuck.
I was planning to get up with the animals at 6:00 and do outdoor work but I didn't sleep that well so I slept in. There's always tomorrow.
This week at work was better after Monday. Monday I was just so upset about everything and I turned it all onto myself like Chris wanted and I cried all morning. So then Monday night when I got home DH and I had to fight about my methods and then Mom called because she read the last blog and she was concerned. So I decided to change my tactics. Tuesday I tried turning my anger outward. Instead of feeling contempt for myself, I felt it for Richard. I was civil, but I didn't interact voluntarily. It worked. I didn't cry even once. And I didn't get in trouble. So I kept that up all week and my mood improved each day until I was having trouble being mad. By Friday I was in such a good mood that I got in trouble again. One of the drivers wanted to use the cart but it had stuff on it. So I moved the stuff to the area where it needed to go. I was supposed to not do that because then no one knows it's there or something? I feel like giant stacks of paper are kind of hard to miss but I told one of the others that it was there after I was scolded. The outward facing contempt thing was easier after that! I also have been asking some of the other bosses if Chris has mentioned anything to them about me. He hasn't so far but I have one more person to ask before I feel I can ask Chris if he really feels the way he said he feels about me.
I'm also going back through the book and writing down the key points.
Don't: critisize, interrupt, talk about myself
Do: make others important, give praise at every opportunity, talk about things from the other person's perspective, show interest in others, smile, pretend to be happy, use peoples' names, show concentrated attention, encourage others to talk about themselves.
This is only partway through. I haven't even gotten to the don't argue part yet and I think that's part 2.
On this list the things I struggle with are the smiling, the happy, and the talking about myself. There will be more as I get to them. I think the pretending to be happy part is where I'm getting the most negative consequenses at work. Many people at work only put forth 50% of effort but they pretend they're happy and nothing bothers them and they get good treatment, promotions, and favorable interactions with Chris. I give 120% every day but sometimes I get upset with others who don't give a crap and so I'm the problem.
Heh, one day I had to surrepticiously save the day. Richard folded a mail job and put it over in the mail area. I knew it had an insert but Richard didn't bother to look at that, or maybe the info wasn't even in the work order. I don't know which; both happen frequently. So I motioned Adam over and quietly told him that the job usually has an envelope that we have to put in it before mailing. He's only been mailer for like 2 weeks so he had no idea. I told him where to find the envelopes. Turns out there were two inserts this time. Once, this job went out without the return envelope and it was a big mess and we had to mail out another letter with the envelope at our cost. I saved us a lot of money. But I had to go behind Richard's back so he wouldn't get onto me for meddling. Too bad I don't believe in Karma. However, the internal satisfaction is enough for now. I'm confident that someday I'll come out ahead.
All I really want is for Chris to apologize for saying horrible things to me, aknowledge that I make important contributions to his company, and to admit that Richard is a jerk.
Pardon, a delusional jerk. He seriously said last week that he has a good relationship with everyone there. And he meant it! He has no idea how his behavior is affecting his life and ours. Actually, I think that's better though. It gives him more humanity if he doesn't realize what he's doing. If he knew and still did it, that would be worse.
Ok, enough of that. It's the weekend. This morning I checked the landscape and found a few disappointments and a few successes. The cardinal vine and the jerusalem artichokes I got from the swap died. I suspect ammonia poisoning. They're on the fence between us and the neighbors who have male dogs. Tuvok and the other dogs frequently engage in territory-defining behaviors. I'm going to have to only plant established plants there with leaves above urine stream height. But most of the other plants are doing well and the lantana that I thought I lost when it got trampled by the plumbers has resprouted from the root! I stopped letting Tuvok out in the front yard when I can't watch him very closely. So he's stopped spraying the snow hill salvia and it is recovering beautifully and putting out lots of new bloom spikes. What a great plant! I should mention that I'm getting paid for saying that... I was pulling weeds around the salvia this morning and I found a $5 bill. So yeah. (Ok, I just spent like 15 minutes trying to make a smiley face with this font. I give up for now.)
Here is a glimpse of the cuteness we must endure on a daily basis. It is tough, but we manage.
I don't think these pansies are going to survive the summer...
I was planning to get up with the animals at 6:00 and do outdoor work but I didn't sleep that well so I slept in. There's always tomorrow.
This week at work was better after Monday. Monday I was just so upset about everything and I turned it all onto myself like Chris wanted and I cried all morning. So then Monday night when I got home DH and I had to fight about my methods and then Mom called because she read the last blog and she was concerned. So I decided to change my tactics. Tuesday I tried turning my anger outward. Instead of feeling contempt for myself, I felt it for Richard. I was civil, but I didn't interact voluntarily. It worked. I didn't cry even once. And I didn't get in trouble. So I kept that up all week and my mood improved each day until I was having trouble being mad. By Friday I was in such a good mood that I got in trouble again. One of the drivers wanted to use the cart but it had stuff on it. So I moved the stuff to the area where it needed to go. I was supposed to not do that because then no one knows it's there or something? I feel like giant stacks of paper are kind of hard to miss but I told one of the others that it was there after I was scolded. The outward facing contempt thing was easier after that! I also have been asking some of the other bosses if Chris has mentioned anything to them about me. He hasn't so far but I have one more person to ask before I feel I can ask Chris if he really feels the way he said he feels about me.
I'm also going back through the book and writing down the key points.
Don't: critisize, interrupt, talk about myself
Do: make others important, give praise at every opportunity, talk about things from the other person's perspective, show interest in others, smile, pretend to be happy, use peoples' names, show concentrated attention, encourage others to talk about themselves.
This is only partway through. I haven't even gotten to the don't argue part yet and I think that's part 2.
On this list the things I struggle with are the smiling, the happy, and the talking about myself. There will be more as I get to them. I think the pretending to be happy part is where I'm getting the most negative consequenses at work. Many people at work only put forth 50% of effort but they pretend they're happy and nothing bothers them and they get good treatment, promotions, and favorable interactions with Chris. I give 120% every day but sometimes I get upset with others who don't give a crap and so I'm the problem.
Heh, one day I had to surrepticiously save the day. Richard folded a mail job and put it over in the mail area. I knew it had an insert but Richard didn't bother to look at that, or maybe the info wasn't even in the work order. I don't know which; both happen frequently. So I motioned Adam over and quietly told him that the job usually has an envelope that we have to put in it before mailing. He's only been mailer for like 2 weeks so he had no idea. I told him where to find the envelopes. Turns out there were two inserts this time. Once, this job went out without the return envelope and it was a big mess and we had to mail out another letter with the envelope at our cost. I saved us a lot of money. But I had to go behind Richard's back so he wouldn't get onto me for meddling. Too bad I don't believe in Karma. However, the internal satisfaction is enough for now. I'm confident that someday I'll come out ahead.
All I really want is for Chris to apologize for saying horrible things to me, aknowledge that I make important contributions to his company, and to admit that Richard is a jerk.
Pardon, a delusional jerk. He seriously said last week that he has a good relationship with everyone there. And he meant it! He has no idea how his behavior is affecting his life and ours. Actually, I think that's better though. It gives him more humanity if he doesn't realize what he's doing. If he knew and still did it, that would be worse.
Ok, enough of that. It's the weekend. This morning I checked the landscape and found a few disappointments and a few successes. The cardinal vine and the jerusalem artichokes I got from the swap died. I suspect ammonia poisoning. They're on the fence between us and the neighbors who have male dogs. Tuvok and the other dogs frequently engage in territory-defining behaviors. I'm going to have to only plant established plants there with leaves above urine stream height. But most of the other plants are doing well and the lantana that I thought I lost when it got trampled by the plumbers has resprouted from the root! I stopped letting Tuvok out in the front yard when I can't watch him very closely. So he's stopped spraying the snow hill salvia and it is recovering beautifully and putting out lots of new bloom spikes. What a great plant! I should mention that I'm getting paid for saying that... I was pulling weeds around the salvia this morning and I found a $5 bill. So yeah. (Ok, I just spent like 15 minutes trying to make a smiley face with this font. I give up for now.)
Here is a glimpse of the cuteness we must endure on a daily basis. It is tough, but we manage.
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| You caught me! |
I don't think these pansies are going to survive the summer...
Sunday, June 5, 2011
Somebody Turned on the Summer
We got the AC fixed just in time. Summer happened. But the garden is happy.
This is the time of year when the plants are growing quickly and flowering but the weeds aren't too tall yet. I like this time.
Work is interesting. This week the guy that has the desk job that I wanted got another job. I may or may not get asked to take his position. I don't think I have the standing right now to ask for the job. Richard is trying to be nicer. He says please and thank you (when he remembers) and has passed up several opportunities to be hateful. On Thursday I ran the cutter all day and during the morning I cut a casino mailer that we do all the time. Usually when we cut this job we go ahead and get it ready to mail as well even though that's technically the mailer's job. So that's what I did. On Friday morning the mailer guy comes by and tells me that Richard told him not to talk to me in the mornings because he distracts me. At first I was baffled but then I remembered that I did that casino mailer and so instead of asking my why I was getting the mailer ready and letting me explain that it's the way we usually do it but I don't have to do that anymore, he told the mailer not to talk to me so I wouldn't be distracted. I was livid. I was so mad I was shaking. I had to go outside and wail on the dumpster with some pvc pipe I found. But that helped and I was able to go back to work just fine after that. But I did not talk to Richard voluntarily the rest of the morning. He left at lunch for vacation fortunately because I was having trouble holding my anger. He's also gone on Monday. Needless to say, I am relieved to have a day free of that and I also would really like to have that desk job and no longer have this boss. I don't know if maybe he was trying to not have a confrontation with me or "get me in trouble" or what but being passive agressive and going behind my back to tell someone else not to interact with me is extremely humiliating. This is at least the second time he's done this. I don't know how many people he's told to not talk to me but two of them have told me about it. The first time was before he was even my boss. He told one of the drivers not to talk to me because he was trying to teach me how to be a team player. (?!) Apparently what Richard didn't like was when the driver had questions about where things were I would help him find the answer. First, he wasn't my boss in any way. Second, even if he were, he should be able to simply tell me he didn't want us helping the drivers find stuff. Third, what a jerk.
Many more people have had confrontations with Richard. Many people have told me how much they hate him. Like there's anything I can do. The company is on Richard's side. I lost all my status, importance, responsibilities, usefulness, everything when Richard became the boss and I asked for advice on what to do about his hatefulness. I got in trouble and was told that his behavior was my fault. I was told that I am a caustic force in all my relationships and eventually I alone will ruin them all. I was told that I deserve to be fired many times over but he believes I can become a better person. I've spent two years trying to believe that I am worth something. Many therapy appointments. Lots of work. I had almost gotten there and then in one conversation, Chris completely destroyed me. This past month has been hard. I cry almost every day. It's one thing to be depressed because that's all you've known, but to be depressed and know what it means to be happy is way worse. Any self confidence I had is gone. And because this is the only way I know how to be a "good employee", I have to just be sad all the time. I've lost almost all my work friends because I'm so miserable to be around. I'm miserable. I don't want to quit because of one person. I used to love my job and I think I could again. But this is miserable.
Chris told me to read "How to Win Friends and Influence People" so I am. I'm mostly done with it. So far the book is about how to be a good boss. Maybe Richard should read it. But I did get some good information about how most people don't really care about having correct information or being right. I'm supposed to let them be wrong or believe faulty information so they can save face and I don't argue. Makes no sense to me. Accurate information is one of the most important things in my life. But ok, I won't argue or tell others they're wrong. Whatever.
Apparently I'm supposed to smile. Smiling does not come natural to me. Especially this month. It feels like a lie and it makes me cry. It reminds me that I used to feel like smiling and I didn't have to concentrate to do it. So now I avoid eye contact so I don't have to smile.
Everything else is how to be a better boss and make your employees feel important and worthwhile. Maybe Chris needs to read this book again. But I'm almost done, and then I'll review it and take notes before I have another meeting with him to discuss what I've learned.
DH has been wonderful and supportive throughout the process and he makes home happy. I'm very thankful for him and whichever friend told him how to be this way.
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| Rose of Sharon |
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| Homestead Flynn's flower |
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| Shasta Daisy |
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| Rudbeckia with bee |
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| Marigold |
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| Osteospermum |
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| Laura Bush Petunia |
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| Petunia |
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| Ladyug eating aphids on the Rose of Sharon |
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| Aloe "Red" flower buds |
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| Ornamental Pepper flower |
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| Angel Trumpet flower |
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| Bee on Lavender |
Work is interesting. This week the guy that has the desk job that I wanted got another job. I may or may not get asked to take his position. I don't think I have the standing right now to ask for the job. Richard is trying to be nicer. He says please and thank you (when he remembers) and has passed up several opportunities to be hateful. On Thursday I ran the cutter all day and during the morning I cut a casino mailer that we do all the time. Usually when we cut this job we go ahead and get it ready to mail as well even though that's technically the mailer's job. So that's what I did. On Friday morning the mailer guy comes by and tells me that Richard told him not to talk to me in the mornings because he distracts me. At first I was baffled but then I remembered that I did that casino mailer and so instead of asking my why I was getting the mailer ready and letting me explain that it's the way we usually do it but I don't have to do that anymore, he told the mailer not to talk to me so I wouldn't be distracted. I was livid. I was so mad I was shaking. I had to go outside and wail on the dumpster with some pvc pipe I found. But that helped and I was able to go back to work just fine after that. But I did not talk to Richard voluntarily the rest of the morning. He left at lunch for vacation fortunately because I was having trouble holding my anger. He's also gone on Monday. Needless to say, I am relieved to have a day free of that and I also would really like to have that desk job and no longer have this boss. I don't know if maybe he was trying to not have a confrontation with me or "get me in trouble" or what but being passive agressive and going behind my back to tell someone else not to interact with me is extremely humiliating. This is at least the second time he's done this. I don't know how many people he's told to not talk to me but two of them have told me about it. The first time was before he was even my boss. He told one of the drivers not to talk to me because he was trying to teach me how to be a team player. (?!) Apparently what Richard didn't like was when the driver had questions about where things were I would help him find the answer. First, he wasn't my boss in any way. Second, even if he were, he should be able to simply tell me he didn't want us helping the drivers find stuff. Third, what a jerk.
Many more people have had confrontations with Richard. Many people have told me how much they hate him. Like there's anything I can do. The company is on Richard's side. I lost all my status, importance, responsibilities, usefulness, everything when Richard became the boss and I asked for advice on what to do about his hatefulness. I got in trouble and was told that his behavior was my fault. I was told that I am a caustic force in all my relationships and eventually I alone will ruin them all. I was told that I deserve to be fired many times over but he believes I can become a better person. I've spent two years trying to believe that I am worth something. Many therapy appointments. Lots of work. I had almost gotten there and then in one conversation, Chris completely destroyed me. This past month has been hard. I cry almost every day. It's one thing to be depressed because that's all you've known, but to be depressed and know what it means to be happy is way worse. Any self confidence I had is gone. And because this is the only way I know how to be a "good employee", I have to just be sad all the time. I've lost almost all my work friends because I'm so miserable to be around. I'm miserable. I don't want to quit because of one person. I used to love my job and I think I could again. But this is miserable.
Chris told me to read "How to Win Friends and Influence People" so I am. I'm mostly done with it. So far the book is about how to be a good boss. Maybe Richard should read it. But I did get some good information about how most people don't really care about having correct information or being right. I'm supposed to let them be wrong or believe faulty information so they can save face and I don't argue. Makes no sense to me. Accurate information is one of the most important things in my life. But ok, I won't argue or tell others they're wrong. Whatever.
Apparently I'm supposed to smile. Smiling does not come natural to me. Especially this month. It feels like a lie and it makes me cry. It reminds me that I used to feel like smiling and I didn't have to concentrate to do it. So now I avoid eye contact so I don't have to smile.
Everything else is how to be a better boss and make your employees feel important and worthwhile. Maybe Chris needs to read this book again. But I'm almost done, and then I'll review it and take notes before I have another meeting with him to discuss what I've learned.
DH has been wonderful and supportive throughout the process and he makes home happy. I'm very thankful for him and whichever friend told him how to be this way.
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